Lots of things are, but my brain is in one now.

Not in a bad way. Quite good actually.

I finally got to tie someone up tonight. I'm on a high right now. I don't know if the rigger can have a rope high or something like that. A rigger's high...could be.

I'm kinda buzzing inside. It wasn't at all sexual. Not for me anyway. I was so focused on the knots and the tie. I was just in it for the tie. It was cool.

I just hope I didn't fuck up anything. I'm like that, I can get a little...stupid? Basically, I make mistakes and I just hope I didn't do anything horrible. While I would like to know that, I would ask the person tied does not identify themselves, and just simply tells me in person or at the very least off my entry.

Nothing too elaborate, well, I tried but it sucked, I have to admit, I tried too hard. The bar tie worked well. I knew I liked it for a reason.

I think I informed/taught/bestowed information. Which felt really good too.


I enjoyed it, a lot. I really like the idea of being good at this. I like the idea of knowing this stuff and helping others.

Do I have any natural ability? I don't think so, but something just felt right.

I don't know if I'm meant to do scenes or get a slave...or nothing like that, but tying someone up for mutual enjoyment == pleased.

I don't know if I did everything right or not, but I know I want to get better.


oh dear...it's 1am now.

Toodles.